Walking home from the bus stop today, I took the long way and went to the beach instead. It has been so nice lately, that I couldn't resist enjoying the beautiful sunset and I ended up swinging like a child. Literally. As I watched the sun go down, the sky turn orange and the night come in, I realized how much things have changed in the past 6 months. It was not that long ago that I was sitting on that same beach, watching one of the several breath-taking summer sunsets, having a conversation that would wake me up to life. My life. Looking back, I don't recall anything too different than what I thought of or was used to reading/thinking about but somehow it ignited a spark within me, it awakened the voice that would make me realize that peace was a state of being and not something that I could search outside of myself. I'm forever thankful to the friend who unconsciously, contributed for that paradigm shift, and I am forever thankful that I was ready to receive such blessing.
The last few months have been so intense, by focusing on the present moment, not only I found my peace of mind, but I was also able to let go of the past that does not exist anymore, as well as I've put my worries and anxieties for the future to rest, because they have no place in my present moment. It's interesting to notice that I used to be so stressed with school and work and struggling with my schedule, that I didn't think I had time to cultivate inner peace, so I used to think that one day, when I had time, I would make it happen. And this way, I spent years in a "sleep-like" state going from one activity to another without really realizing that I was not really living, I was merely existing. I gave up on writing (reason why my old blog was deleted), I stopped writing poems, journaling, drawing, dancing, singing... If I only I knew that by bringing my mind to stillness that everything would fall into place... Yet, there is a time for everything.
Peace brought me to yoga, yoga brought me peace. Yoga slowly took over my life. It brought me peace, it energizes me when I'm tired and it calms my mind when I'm agitated. It has become so essential that my mind-sould-body miss it if I don't practice for a day. And I don't mean just asana practice.. that is just a small part of this beautiful philosophy. I mean everything, from compassion to non-violence, from breathing to meditating. The funny part is, that when I started to search deeply within the reasons why I love yoga and it feels so natural, I remembered that when I was in high school, my favourite class at the gym was called "body balance" which was a mix of yoga and tai chi. Then it dawned me that sun salutations feel like home because I've practiced them before... a long time ago. And I thought that the familiar feeling was from a past life! (Still... one never know!).
In the end, as I found my peace, everything is starting to fall into place. I've started writing again, I've been reading and drawing. I've found a place to chant, which is so much more meaningful than just singing and I've opened up to finding myself, to realize who I am, and what is my purpose in this lifetime. The journey has just begun.
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Namasté ॐ
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